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haven't written in forever
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rather tempting to cut eh? i have kind of trained myself not to for a couple months now. there goes a little record for myself heh.. [amna]
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2002-05-18 15:10:35 |
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haven't written in forever
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I hope you have a good weekend. take care! ♥ [Aja17]
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2002-05-17 17:46:17 |
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Telling James.
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My best friend is a self injurer to, and if you want my advice I agree with James. I think you should go to an adult that you trust and tell them. They can then refer you to a doctor who can help you way more than a friend can. Good Luck and I hope all works out for you! I'm sure it will be a long journey, but you can do it if YOU truly want to! <3, *~*Katie*~* [ShOrTNSwEeT28]
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2002-05-05 12:48:09 |
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Telling James.
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Hey, I've been gone for quite some time, sorry about the lack of replying. He has a good reason for wanting you to get help, I doubt he enjoys seeing in you any pain, but I think it's good you two are coming to terms on the situation. Hell, I think you are stonger than you are admitting to yourself right now. Just follow what you think is right. [KillThePoor]
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2002-04-10 13:44:43 |
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Telling James.
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Hey, sorry I haven't been around lately. I'm glad that you've talked to James about it. And I agree, accidental pain feels so much different. Right now I'm bruised and banged up from a concert and it's not as pleasant as self inflicted bruising. Looky, I finally got out of the house.. and I'm still miserable tonight.. but enough of that. I really hope you're okay and you feel better and you get what help you can. I've missed talking to you and I hope your finger gets better. Much love (wish I could hug you, you need it). [Gothic Pixie]
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2002-04-08 21:01:38 |
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Telling James.
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Hay mate, it's me Vanessa T! I have a new diary! I tried to listen to my parents but i can't live without my diary! After you read this can you please delete it coz i do not want my brother to find out bout my new diary. Luv ya! [Abused_Grunge]
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2002-04-08 15:13:23 |
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Telling James.
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na if u try and get help its jus gunna fuck you over. jus talk bout it to someone u trust or even jus someone on the net and thats all the help u need. some day you'll realize u dont really need to cut and then everything will be all good. for now i think u shuld jus keep doing what u want. u can check out my site if u want www.geocities.com/addicted_to_si [fuckedupteen]
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2002-04-07 18:36:06 |
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Telling James.
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hang in there champ, it'll be okay. [Kavorkian Killed]
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2002-04-06 03:30:54 |
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Telling James.
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I didn't realize that the accidental cut would feel different than one you did yourself. I knew someone who used to cut his arm and I didn't understand why at all. You are teaching me alot. Hang in there sweetie. [ConnieJ]
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2002-04-05 09:50:13 |
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Back from vacation.
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You are trying and that's the most important thing. Keep up the good work for James and for YOU. [ConnieJ]
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2002-04-04 10:44:04 |
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Stolen from Maxwell Edison. Buhahaha.
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Hey, thanks for the comment in my diary and most especially for giving me your email address. Your offer to talk meant alot to me. :) ConnieJ [ConnieJ]
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2002-03-30 04:16:39 |
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Stolen from Maxwell Edison. Buhahaha.
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why are men clueless?!....shit, thats easy enough to answer....because we don't have a clue! our mind's are a blank 24/7...my question is why do you women still like us?!! now THAT'S foolish....ofcoarse i'm not complaining. [Kavorkian Killed]
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2002-03-29 16:55:11 |
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My downfall. Part 2.
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Sounds like you fought hard enough. Sounds like you're still fighting. (((((((((( hug )))))))) [Maxwell Edison]
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2002-03-29 08:08:34 |
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My downfall. Part 2.
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It is NOT your fault that he did that. Gahd, this makes me so angry. It's just like what happened with this AJ kid I know.. I thought he was my friend, but I was wrong. My reaction was similar to yours.. only it wasnt just his fingers. I am so sorry that you had to go through that. Remember that I am here for you, always. That S.O.B. will get what he deserves, I swear. People like that make me sick. I think that you did everything you could do in the given situation. You're really sweet and I can't believe someone would even THINK of taking advantage of you. I feel your pain, I really do. As I've said countless times, I'm here to talk with any time you want. All my love and best wishes for a brighter future.. [Gothic Pixie]
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2002-03-28 23:38:51 |
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My downfall. Part 2.
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It wasn't your fault, just remember that. If you look for help, yu'll get it, and everything might not be ok, but it will be better than it was before. You're a brave person. [The Jesus Freak]
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2002-03-28 14:04:24 |
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My downfall. Part 2.
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hon, you fought hard enough. You were the victim and he is to blame and you are not. When you are ready I hope that you find someone to talk to about this. You are an incredible young woman don't deserve to have pain like this eating away at you. This guy is sick and it is not your fault he needed control and to hurt someone and he made you his victim. Thank you for being so brave and letting this out. take care of your self. [snarlsdale]
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2002-03-28 13:17:04 |
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My downfall. Part 2.
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Check out 420 pt2, ask person questions and they will be answered!! Username:420 pt2 Password:shit Thanks! [420 pt2]
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2002-03-27 18:38:23 |
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My downfall. Part 1.
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pleas dont edit!!!!!!!!!!! rush "space" it. thare i think i said it so it will not edit. now jus go to my first one an put that in ware it had first edited. dang it [The Phantasm]
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2002-03-22 18:16:55 |
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My downfall. Part 1.
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ok it keeps doing that, now i am annoyed. i just wanna say Rush______ it PLEASE O PLEASE DONT EDIT IT YOU DAMMMM COMPUTER [The Phantasm]
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2002-03-22 18:14:53 |
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My downfall. Part 1.
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HAHAHAHAHA this is funny, i typed "Rush it", but i fergot the space. so the stupid computer editid it cuz it thought i said..... another way of saying "poop". (hopfully it wont edit that too lol) omg lol thats funny [The Phantasm]
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2002-03-22 18:13:03 |
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My downfall. Part 1.
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hey again hun, i am back online again, yah i agree dont rush it. talk at your own pace. if you set the pace than you will heal faster. rushing will only cause you to get really depressed. well anyways on a lighter note. LIFE IS CRAZY!! (lol lighter huh??) well anyways, never let anyone tell you sumthin like that is your fault, personally i say nex time a guy trys to do sumthin like that just smash his balls to a bloody pulp, that would be better for all humanity. get rid o the jerks!! ;-) lol remember we love ya hun, *hugs* The Phantasm [The Phantasm]
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2002-03-22 18:09:49 |
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My downfall. Part 1.
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I was abused by my older cousin when I was five and again when I was twelve. It's not easy to cope with, especially when your parents won't believe you.. That cousin's in prison now, he raped the daughter of a police cheif.. I really hope he's somebody's b!tch now.. He'll get what he deserves. Anyways.. it's NOT your fault and anyone who thinks so needs to do a serious perspective check. As I said, I'm here for you. Take care of yourself. [Gothic Pixie]
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2002-03-21 17:30:40 |
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My downfall. Part 1.
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I think I know you from another name, no? I think the earlier you start therapy and dealing with this, the better. It's good that you can talk about it. You're only as sick as your secrets. Keep talking, this is a safe place for you. [Maxwell Edison]
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2002-03-19 10:28:59 |
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My downfall. Part 1.
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Don't rush talking about it. It's a big step to be bringing it out in the open at all. You are doing a great job. Keep up the good work! [ConnieJ]
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2002-03-19 10:11:55 |
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My downfall. Part 1.
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I was abuse when I was a child by a relative also. The first thing you need to know is that it isn't your fault. And the victim is never to blame. Telling someone else is the first step to healing. You are very brave. I'm here if you need me. [snarlsdale]
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2002-03-18 23:06:51 |
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That last entry was really depressing.
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Snowflake Princess, you are sooooo right. We all have a way of coping. Mine isn't cutting but it is just as destructive. I don't find ways to hurt myself, I just find people who will do that for me. Anyway, that's another story. [ConnieJ]
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2002-03-18 10:43:57 |
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The worse thing imaginable has come to pass.
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James reacted normally under the circumstances. He obviously cares about you a great deal. I think it's a good thing he knows what you are going through. Turn to him, he's there for you. [ConnieJ]
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2002-03-17 15:55:51 |
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The worse thing imaginable has come to pass.
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I can completely understand your dilemma. I also have a few scars that I'm not too proud of. My parents took me to a specialist because of my depression, but neither he nor they ever found out about my little problem. I usually don't like to talk about it.. but a few of my friends have noticed the scars. It's really terrible when one day you go to school with a bandage on your arm because of an allergic reaction to your jewelry, and everyone immediately starts to whisper about "Oh she tried to kill herself again.." and your friends run up to you and scream at you "what did you do? Let me see it!!" I guess maybe it hurts them a little when they find out they were worried over nothing.. I'm rambling now, so I want to get straight to the point. You can work through this, I know you can. And I know what it's like to see the pain in the eyes of someone you love. I've never told anyone about this, but if you have the courage to come forward, so should I. I'm here for you. Please don't automatically assume I'm a bad person just because I'm somewhat gothic and just because I'm a little different. I'm offering my support to you. If you ever need to talk or anything, my email is wheresmyxanex@hotmail.com I know it seems like a mockery of people who need that medication, but I just use humor as a defense mechanism. I'm sure James really really cares about you, and I think you're lucky to have such loving support. This is going to sound creepy and therapist-like, but if you ever need to talk, I'm here for you. Oh yeah, and sorry for taking up such a large chunk of your comments box. [Gothic Pixie]
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2002-03-17 13:33:36 |
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Cutting Quiz.
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Oh yeah, I forgot to tell you that I added you to my favorite's list, hope you don't mind. ~*me again*~ [That_Gothic_Bytch]
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2002-03-14 18:43:55 |
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Cutting Quiz.
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Hey sweetie, just checking up on you and saying hi, appreciate the compliment, theres some new stuff in there if you wanna check it out. ~*much love*~ [That_Gothic_Bytch]
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2002-03-14 18:40:42 |
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Cutting Quiz.
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You know how you said you know of some people who are cutters but they don't know you know? Well, maybe some people know about you too and just don't say anything. I feel you about not having money to go to a therapist. BUT, there are places everywhere that will see you based on your parents income if you don't have insurance. Maybe there is a hotline or somthing like that. There's help out there. If you feel comfortable, talk to a counselor at school. However, I'm saying this only IF you want to talk to someone. That will have to be your decision. [ConnieJ]
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2002-03-14 14:34:52 |
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Cutting Quiz.
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I cut when I'm angry or sad, not for the pain but because I have a thing for blood... BTW, amanda was the person who I just found out was the supposedly single fox I'd been chasing's girlfriend... (he told me the only reason he didn't want to be my b/f was that he didn't want a g/f... bs!) lol, Loves~ [Belladonna Phoenix]
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2002-03-14 09:29:32 |
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Cutting Quiz.
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Just because you get straight A's doesn't mean you are street smarts. School isn't everything. So you think cutting is the right thing to do. Go get help, that's all i am saying. If you are cutting you can become sucidale!! cutting obviously means you aren't happy with yourself!! [Aja17]
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2002-03-13 16:58:43 |
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Cutting Quiz.
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Wow, everyone around here cuts...I thought I was the only one... [LiRpA]
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2002-03-13 16:34:05 |
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Cutting Quiz.
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you cut yourself?? that doesn't fix anything. Whenever i read peoples diary that say they cut themselves. I think selfish, dumb, and NEEDS HELP!!! tell someone about it!! [Aja17]
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2002-03-13 16:30:02 |
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the weekend- why i didn't cut.
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Hey, I know I don't know you, but it's still cool to know your weekend went better. I honestly think one day you need to sit down with James and tell me about it. I've known from the past that with something like that, it's much harder on the other person to know that someone they love has been keeping something like that from them. Granted he may not react the way you want, but who knows, he may react better than you think. I just don't want to hear you say he flipped out on you for hiding that from him and he found out in the worst way. Just an opinion always do what you think is best...From a friend. [KillThePoor]
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2002-03-11 14:46:55 |
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the weekend- why i didn't cut.
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Hey, thanks for leaving a comment in my diary. I actually really don't know if I'm going to talk to him or not... When I get upset I either cut myself or burn things, it's not because I need to cut myself, I just have an obsession with blood and fire is so soothing. Yep, my anger management lady said I'm a pyro, lol. loves to all~ [Belladonna Phoenix]
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2002-03-06 14:36:16 |
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last night, today.
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For most the world, beauty is only skin deep. But for the few that take time out and really look at people, they start to understand that everything within is what makes them happy, and what makes them smile. If you are scarred on the outside, it only shows you've lived, and you are making your way through it. I hope you and your boy friend had a good day. [KillThePoor]
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2002-03-02 19:59:09 |
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last night, today.
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hey thanks for the reply, i jhavent got the hang of this thingy as u can see, but thankyou, um ill see what i can do...i needed that [Ickle Star]
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2002-03-02 16:44:09 |
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last night, today.
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hey hun, juss wanten to let u no i got dissconnected when talkin to u earlier, im me again at DopedUpPhantom plz. well anyways hope to talk to u later luv u lots hun, ttyl. luv always The Phantasm [The Phantasm]
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2002-03-02 15:17:28 |
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relieving the pain.
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Hey I know how you feel when you start cutting. Ive never started cutting but I would do similar things. I would dig my nails into my skin till I saw blood, or I would do the same thing you do band my head up against the wall or something hard till I couldnt see or I was dizzy. But over this past year I've gotten better and Im not depressed as much as I was then. Last year it was wrose I was close to killing myself. But now I am finally recovering. I hope that you have the courage to help yourself and one day when you decide to cut your not going to think that something is going to happen but one of those times your going to cut yourself so deep and then it will all be over. it wont hurt but it wil be over. If you want to veiw some of the poems that Ive written about last year and about depression you can go to my diary. Ciao, Carley [Gabriela]
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2002-03-02 14:42:42 |
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last night, today.
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about your comment: i know what self-injury is all about. I injure myself (surprise, surprise). If i didn't understand it, i wouldnt make such comments. [blink_rules]
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2002-03-02 14:35:57 |
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last night, today.
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self-mutilation was once a sign of psychological pain that has been overly abused untill it has become a fact of life that many random teenagers wanting attention turn to. [blink_rules]
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2002-03-02 14:15:41 |
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relieving the pain.
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I forgot to tell you how important it is to have someone safe to talk to and support you. I know how hard it is to find someone you trust with these kind of things. Hang in there. [snarlsdale]
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2002-03-02 12:33:29 |
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relieving the pain.
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There are many of us that have pain like you and it was brave of you to put it in a place where others could comment on it. I don't cut due to my fear of sharp objects so I do things that are self destructive. If you ever need someone to talk to I am here. [snarlsdale]
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2002-03-02 11:20:24 |
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relieving the pain.
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Your not alone here at MDD. A LOT of diaries are about cutters, or they hurt themselves in other ways. I have never expericanced this, so I have nothing to offer you, but...do you plan on trying to get professional help? [Enchanting]
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2002-03-02 01:29:45 |
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relieving the pain.
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cool but im not going to write a poem for you [death is a privelage]
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2002-03-02 00:46:56 |
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relieving the pain.
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hey hun me again it didn leave my link to my diary lol i told it to tho, so hopefully it will work this time. Luv Always The Phantasm [the phantasm]
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2002-03-02 00:25:41 |
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relieving the pain.
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Well, I must say, in a way I know how you feel. Yet for better or worse, I don't have it in to me carry it out. Might be the reason why I like biting and wrestling...and partly because of the sexual notation behind it. Anyway, don't feel so bad. it's something some people go through, and one day, if you want to, you will get over it. Just remember, it's never worth a life. [KillThePoor]
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